April 5th, 2008
(Almost six months after Chad passed away)
It is hard to believe that six months ago Chad and I were asleep in a hotel in Chicago. What must he think? Is there any way that he could have imagined that his Earthly life would end two short days later?
Tonight I am in a resort in Marathon, Florida. Whoever could have imagined? I wish, SO, that I could share all this with Chad. I miss him, my heart just breaks! Still . . .
I do my first concert in six months tomorrow. Oh, God, please sing and speak for me! I lay my entire ministry down before You! It is not mine. Please give me Your message! Please show me what You will have for me to say. Oh, Father, I never want this to be about me . . . but always about You! I lay down all my pride. I love and worship You. May You get all the glory!
Chad – I still just cannot believe you are gone! I miss you!